Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Let's Go Away

Another pointless post about my journey through my iTunes playlist. Currently in the M's. Rocking out to Ace Troubleshooter's Madness of the Crowds. Great album. I'd guess I'm about halfway through my playlist... Who actually knows though.

Next 5 albums in rotation:

Efterklang - Magic Chair
Magic Lantern - Magic Lantern
Hopesfall - Magnetic North
Thrice - Major/Minor
Kenna - Make Sure They See My Face

Monday, December 26, 2011

Something Must Break

I don't write songs a lot any more. Mostly because I'm not a great song writer and I get pretty frustrated with myself. I write poetry to express things that I would say in songs, only in poetry I can be as long winded as I want and ramble and don't feel a need to make sense. Plus I don't have to play guitar to write poems.

Anyways, I wrote some songs the other night. Well, parts of some songs. But I wrote a whole song called Something Must Break. The chorus says "If something must break, it must be me" and it's about needing God to break our hearts and open our eyes to the world around us and even when we feel alone and broken, and useless, God is still there with us and taking care of us no matter what.

The video quality isn't great and my singing voice won't be heard on the radio ever but the words are important, so enjoy.

As The World Turns...

It was this week 2 years ago that I made a huge decision that would change the course of my life. It had been brewing for a while that I was going to leave my job but with a week off between Christmas and New Years to pray and talk to people, it, at the time, seemed like the right move for my life. Hindsight being what it is, if we're just being honest, if I had known that the last 2 years were going to play out like they have, I probably wouldn't have taken the step of faith and left my job without anything new lined up.

And I don't say that to be negative about the last 2 years of my life. I've gotten to make most of my living as a musician, made some killer records with friends of mine, got to travel more then I would if I was tied to a job, and have gotten to see God be faithful and bless me in more ways then I have begun to be thankful for. I've seen my little music obsession and blog turn into something others consider a credible music source.

While it's been tough and pretty financially frustrating, I'm trusting that God has a plan and that all the good that's happened in the last couple of months is Him starting to move and position me where He has me going.

So what's on tap for 2012... Who knows. But I have a lot of good carrying over from the last 6 months of my life and I know if I remain faithful, He is always faithful.

Thursday, December 8, 2011

How Committed Am I?

One thing I've found to be true in my life is that God will use pretty mundane and innocent things to convict me about bigger issues in my life.

So a friend of mine texted me today and asked what got me up before 8:30. The answer was simple, I got up at 7 to run because I had somewhere to be this morning.

No big deal. I run every day. If I have somewhere to be be in the morning I'll get up early to get my run in. I run 6 days a week. I'm a pretty dedicated and committed runner. (You can see where this going right?)

So later this afternoon as I was on the train going through my text messages the thought came to mind "What would my life be life if I was as committed to God as I am to running."


I've had similar experiences before and the heartache you feel when convicted like that sucks. It's a stinging pain that's hard to get describe.

It's not that my running is a bad habit or something God hates but I far too often am more committed to running, and other things, then I am to my relationship with God and that is not right. And I'm grateful for this conviction and grateful for my friend's text even though they were (probably) in no way trying to convict or judge me. But God uses a little bit of everything to get people's attention. And all I can do is apologize to God. Because he deserve's my best and my attention and my first fruits and more often then not he gets my worst and my leftovers. And that's not right. And that's on me.

So... What are you committed to more than God? What else am I committed to more than God?

Monday, December 5, 2011

Embrace Your Place

I have a folder on my computer of sermons that I've saved for repeated listening. There are some messages that have been so impactful in my life and speak simple truths that I need constant reminding of and so I listen to these often. Well this weeks message from Christine Caine will be added to the folder.

Christine Caine talked about being content with where God has placed you, even if it seems like you're in the far side of the desert. God knows where we are and he's placed us there for a reason, even if we don't see it.

I've posted before about spending 40 years in the desert but even still it gets hard to see that God has a plan and that the promise land is there. But I can say, even in small moments, that God is moving me in certain directions and opening doors that weren't there a year ago and while the promise land is still in the distance and hard to see, I know I'm headed in the right direction.