Thursday, April 30, 2009

This is the First Time I Have Ever Shared My True Self with Anyone

God save your grace for the deserving, not gutter trash like me
Because I'm ruining the life you died to save
A moment with these whores or eternity with you
But a moment is all that matters in this 15 minute world
A love once lost is what I'll be,
though you never travel far from me.
But your loves comes down upon us all
In lonely alleys and dockside bars
To forgive us sinners our broken hearts
And bring us home into your arms


The Chariot - Daggers

Sunday, April 19, 2009

As The Little Things Go

I've meant to post all week but... just haven't. I guess I've been doing stuff but I can't figure it out. Oh well.

The Appleseed Cast on Tuesday night was a fantastic show. I had never seen them live before and was so happy to finally have the chance.

I did get an advanced copy of the new record by one of my favorite bands... and I'm not too thrilled with it, which makes me sad. I'll give a review when it is actually released. So sad.

Steph Modder's cd release show is tonight. Looking forward to hearing her album live.

Monday, April 13, 2009

Worn Out Weather

Downloaded the new record by My Heart to Joy tonight. It's called "Seasons in Verse". Quality post-hardcore/emo record. I'm only a couple tracks in but I'm digging it. Good stuff.

It's too cold. It's mid-April. It's spring. I got the whole April showers deal but the rain in starting the wear at me. I'd like some sunny weather. That would be awesome. Sunny and warm. Easter was alright... but I'd like Spring. I know we only get like a week of awesome Spring weather in DC but it'd be nice to have.

Really digging this blog

Going to see the Appleseed Cast tomorrow night at the DC 9. I can't wait.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Happy Easter

I'm not sure what exactly to say this Easter. I know the last 2 years I've just posted Isaiah 53 and the lyrics to Amazing Grace but that doesn't seem right this year.

Forgiveness is good. Like true forgiveness, where you deserve it not at all. The kind that hurts to receive. It feels good. I think it's ashamed that's not how we feel about the forgiveness of God (at least I know I don't). If I believe what the bible says then I deserve to die and spend eternity in hell. That sucks. But I've put my faith in God, who loves me and sent his son to die for my sin, so I can receive forgiveness and be considered righteous in his eyes. That's Awesome!

Yet when I ask for forgiveness how come do I rarely feel the pain of having caused God great hurt that I do when hurting others? Momentary guilt at times but I hate thinking that all my repentance is empty. Thinking about what God did to forgive me, and save me, and make me righteous... it seems hollow to ask for a clean slate and not feel anything more then slight remorse.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Childhood Memory

The very first verse in the bible I remember is the 23rd Psalm. It's the very first verse my parents had me memorize as a kid. And yet when I read it tonight it hit me in a new way.

"The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever."

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Cherry Blossoms

Had a great day yesterday hanging out downtown. Left the house about noon and took the train to Tenleytown for a little Z Burger. Pretty good burger. Just a small step below Five Guys but still a good lunch. I decided to skid hitting up Melody records because the idea of carrying vinyl with me for the rest of the day seemed like a terrible idea. So we took Metro to the Cherry Blossoms. We found a nice spot under a tree and just layed there for a half an hour or so. Took a walk around and just took pictures and enjoyed the great weather. Then walked over to Ebenezers Coffeehouse for a NCC Saturday night service. Took the train home and got Chipotle. Chipotle is about my favorite food. Love their burritos. Caught the end of the Uconn/Michigan ST game. The Michigan State win prompted my mom to call and rub that in my face. Very classy mom. Becky and Jake came over and we went to Baileys for some dessert and drinks and then to the theater to see Monsters vs Aliens. An alright movie. A good Saturday.

Today I mostly chilled. Went over to my parents to eat their food and watch their tv. Came home and watched some Family Guy and The Braves kick off the 09 baseball season with win!

This is also the last day of my 40 day lent fast which means an extra large Dunkin Donuts coffee for BP. A lot has happened... kind of, in the last 40 days and I'l write about it tomorrow. Goodnight.

Saturday, April 4, 2009


Listening to a little Andy Hunter this morning. Really digging "Life" but "Colour" just doesn't hit the same way. Going to spend the day in DC. Get some food, see the Cherry Blossoms, and just have a good time in the nice weather.

Last night Car and me were on the news...

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Red and Blue Jeans

So it wasn't nice and sunny today. Or really that warm. Another dark, wet, April day in DC. Which is ok. We need the rain (not that you'd call what it did today rain) and I enjoy the dark wet days (although not if I have to drive, like today). I was just hoping for some warm, sunny, spring weather. Tomorrow there are supposed to be thunder storms. Hopefully just in the morning but reports are conflicting. It will be sunny and 65 on Saturday which is just about perfect in my books and that's when I plan on partaking in cherry blossom events anyway.

Tomorrow is the last work day without coffee! I'm excited. Three more days. I can do it. And honestly, overall, as a fast it hasn't been that hard. I still drink hot tea in the morning and I'm mostly ok without all that caffeine in my system but I just miss drinking coffee. I miss going to get coffee on the weekends or in the evenings with Car. Drinking coffee in the morning... On Monday I'm going to Dunkin Donuts and getting an extra large coffee with creme and a muffin and it will be glorious.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

It's Beautiful...

I didn't really sleep last night. 2 hours isn't much. Not enough to have a very productive day. I was so tired this morning I was ready to stop my lent fast early and grab a cup of coffee. I wanted to, seriously considered it, but in the end didn't. It would have been such a disappointment with only 4 days left to go.

The end of the first day of April is nearly at a close. An alright day. A little wet, a little dark but not bad. Warm tomorrow, warm and sunny all weekend! I love spring. My goal is to get out Saturday and see the Cherry Blossoms (still pissed I missed them last year). Going to enjoy them this year.

Here's something awesome