When Bryan Speaks...

I write because it helps me get things off my chest and it keeps a certain sense of creativity flowing through me. But today I'm writing to have a record of things I'm learning, something I can come back to. So sorry kids, no crazy youtube video, music video, or song lyrics today. (does anyone read this crap anyway?)

Spiritually I've felt like I've been getting my ass kicked lately. Knowing what God has called of me and what he wants me to be a part of and about and not getting anywhere close to it. Plus dealing with cleaning out my emotional and spiritual closet and figuring out who I am as a person and in God and it's been a tough or so for me spiritually.

I'd like to spend my time praying outdoors. But I'm a spoiled American and when it's hot and humid I'm inside and when it's freezing cold I'm inside. That leaves a couple months a year when I can spend my time praying outdoors. The reason I like being outdoors is that there's something about being in God's creation, just him and me that opens me up. I don't "pray" very good. The best way for me to talk to God is by actually talking to him, just rapping and letting him know what's up. And God gets that because at some point as I'm talking I say something profound (not really profound but it's always is exactly what I need to hear/say at that moment). Everytime. EVERYTIME!

I'm always amazed at how simple the revelation fo God can be. And what struck me tonight was it's not about where I am. I don't have to be perfect and have everything in my life figured out or lined up to be out there doing what God's called me to do. It's not about me, it's about God. Mark batterson has a saying that I really like. "Don't let what's wrong with you keep you from worshipping what's right with God." This is the same thing. I shouldn't let what's wrong with me stop me from doing the work of God. My imperfections can't stop his perfection. So I need to be out there doing what God has called me to do.

The other thing was I need to stop jumping God's timing. If God has promosied me something but said it's not time I don't need to be out there trying to make it the right time. It never works and it only makes me mad.

Alright, I lied about no video. I've been listening to Josh Tillman's record "Long May You Run" the past couple of nights and I'm completely loving the record. Here's his video for "Seven States Across". Enjoy some good sad bastard music.

The Suffer and the Witness

I always enjoy a good punk record. Lots of energy, lyrics that means something. Not since Squad Five-O's 2004 release "Late Breaking News" had I heard a good punk record. But that changed today. I discovered (a year and a half later) Rise Against's 2006 record "The Suffer and the Witness". Tim McIlrath is one of the better lyricist I've heard in a while. I'm really upset I'm just hearing Rise Against.

Hail to the Redskins!

So it's been a busy, fun-filled weekend.

Friday night I went and saw 3:10 to Yuma. Now, I'm a fan of westerns. I think cowboy movies are great, not as good as kung-fu movies but still fun. So naturally, I enjoyed it. You don't get many cowboy movies anymore (and Brokeback Mountain does not count).

Saturday was kind of sad. Michigan again lost. I mean they got beat down. Gone is the possibilty of a national championship. If only they would fire Lloyd Carr.

Saturday night was another story. UFC 76 live on spike and it was a good one. Well for two fights anyway. The first two fights ended in knock outs (the reason I watch fights). The main event, the Rampage fight, was a pretty good fight. It went all 5 rounds and Rampage won but man was it hard for me to keep my open. I was too tired to stay up that late.

Now, we'll get to what's really important in life, the opening day of the Washington Redskins football season. I've been waiting since December for this day to come. My house was full of people eating nachos, all wearing burgandy and gold. And... WE WON!!! 16-13 victory over the Miami Dolphins. I was excited. Here's looking forward to a great season with lots of football.

Sending You Strength

Sometimes there are songs that have meaning at a certain time in your life. I really like the song "Connected" by Means. I'm really excited to see them live at Facedown Fest in a couple weeks. Plus this song has meaning for me right now. So...



I keep lying awake at night
Cause i cant sleep
I know you remember me
When you're gone
How could we forget
We're connected
You can take this to the end
I will be strong

You can take it
You can take this to the end
And further
My brother
I will be strong for you

I am sending you strength,
Sending you strength
I hope we never forget
My brother
Now i am sending you strength

How far do we have to travel
Just to be home again
And will we recognize eachother
If there are scars on our faces

All of this time
I know i could count on you
You make me stronger than i could ever know
As we move on
You can take these words
You can take these words from me

Take these words
We cant forget we're connected
Take more than words
Take life from this

All of this time
I know i could count on you
You make me stronger than i could ever know
As we move on
You can take these words
You can take these words from me

I am sending you strength
No matter where you are nothing changes
I am sending you strength
No matter where you are nothing changes

Sending you strength
Sending you strength

Raising Your Voice...

LA Ink is at commerical and I need to post this.

If you don't listen to Hammock you need to!

No Reservations

So I enjoyed my day off. I got to sleep in. I spent most of my day chilling on the couch playing video games. Sounds like a great day.

As multi-talented as I am, I also spent the day watching Anthony Bourdain: No Reservations. I've seen an episode but today was a marathon. I spent a good chunk of my afternoon engulfed in this show. A cynic who goes around the world. Sounds like my type of show.

My new goal in life is to travel more and see places I've never been to before.

Life Goes On

First off I must say that Michigan losing to Appalachian State hurts. Not a good way to start the college football season.

Anyway, I love the three day weekend. Having Monday off makes me happy. The bank being closed Monday and having to wait until Tuesday to get money doesn't but that's ok. I think I'll go to the zoo tomorrow.

Also, Pumpkin Pie makes me happy. I happen to be eating some at this moment. It's very good.

Here's a song I was enjoy today. "Life Goes On" by Pigeon John